Update

So I am officially terrible at updating. Wayne only has four days left of radiation and then he will resume a five day treatment of chemo and from there he should be in a clinical trial. At this point he feels great. The radiation treatment makes him tired and so far that has been the only side effect. It has been amazing these last few weeks all the kind phone calls and emails we have received, I am grateful that Wayne has so much support.

It has been one month since the surgery and considering the situation I am at peace. I remind myself daily if not hourly that God is in control. To live in Faith and not Fear. I refuse to live in Fear, that is what satan wants. God is teaching me to live in Faith, to cast my burdens on Him. I am telling you it works, get out your Bible, get on your knees and start praying. Give God a chance he will change you from the inside out. We all are going to face crisis in life. Suffering is unavoidable and inescapable. How will you respond? How do you answer the tough questions, Who is God? What happens when people die ?What is Heaven? There are many different religions and beliefs but only one can be right. They can all be wrong but they all can't be right. The fact is we are all going to die the reality is most people have no idea who God is. Personally I have lived most of my adult life avoiding the tough questions. Never stop asking questions, never stop seeking. My light bulb moment was when what I believed did not corespond to the realities of life. God is love. Jesus suffered so we can live eternally. Even if you don't believe in Jesus that doesn't change the fact that he died for you. That is the most amazing thing about God, he gives you a choice. You can accept him or reject him, but he will never reject you. I might me crazy with all my "God" ramblings but I can tell you Wayne and I are proof that given our current circumstances without God we would have no hope and no future. Our future is in Gods hands. Please continue to pray. God bless you all.